The End

If you're reading this, I would like you to know that this blog has officially reached the end. 

Time to move on from the past and be in the next stage of life. Click the link below if you're interested.

Thank you and bye!

When it Matters 

:)

Certain conversation triggered some memories that I had in these past few years. I realized that I can never keep friends. Like what I mentioned few posts ago, primary life wasnt a good chapter at all. Friends come and go in a blink of an eye. I thought it all ended in primary but the same thing nearly happened again in Form 1. I admit it's my mistake back then. Should have just kept my mouth shut around my family.. I realized that every year i'll be changing the group of friends that i spend more time with. It may due to different reasons, but it still happened. And what happen when you spend less time with your friends? They drift apart. So yeah, little did i know that will happen to me. This time, it's again a mistake I made. In the end I'm left alone, with friends that had drifted apart. Whenever I hear certain things, i'll feel jealousy. I guess that i'll just let this be a reminder to myself not to let this happen again. If it does then it's my attitude, or a curse.

11/11/11

SPM's over. Prom's over. Back from sleepover. And now i'm bored :(
So i think i should blog instead to kill time. So let's start with the graduation photos :)
Since there wasnt many photos from that day in my camera so not posting them on fb :)

That's all for now. Tata!

The Present

Since the starting of october, my physics tuition teacher had been telling us some information that will benefit us in the future. First it's about buying car, then it's about universities. Few weeks ago, he asked us to answer three questions.

1. When is the most important time? (past, present, future)
2. Who is the most important person?
3. What is the most important thing to do?

We all gave different answers. For 3rd some answered be happy, go bungee jumping, and others. While for the 2nd some answered mother, father and myself. I gave the answers present, myself and be healthy. However, he told us that nobody got the correct answer for the 2nd and 3rd. He then proceeded by telling us one of his life experiences.

While he was walking on the road, a motorbike hit him and he got thrown to the car. The car driver came out, not to help him get up but to check whether are there damages to the car. With just one line directed to him, 'why didn't pay attention?' and then he drove away. My teacher then realized the answer of the questions really makes sense.

So what are the answers? He delayed few more weeks and finally, he told us the answer today. He started the class by showing us the video of the 2 year old girl that got run away by 2 vans in china, yet 18 people ignored her. He said that the answer applies to here too. The answers are

1. Present
2. People who are around you right now
3. To care

This is because for his case, if the driver around him cared, he will help him up. But he didn't. This is because he thought it is not important. The guy that got hit is not important. But his car is much more important than the guy.

The same thing can be applied to the 2 year old girl. The van driver does not care about the girl, he cares more about himself. Same goes with the other pedestrians. They do not care bout the girl, they think she's not important. Except for the trash collector that helped her. She cares for the girl and got the help that the girl needed. If only one of the pedestrian helped her earlier, the second driver will not get to run over her. She will have less injury and got the help she needed earlier. Then it will increase the chances for her survival.

Therefore, start caring people! Don't let something like this happen again just because you're being selfish and think it's best to mind your own business.

Just ignore this useless post.

There's something I realized. It's actually quite easy to ruin someone's day and sometimes it will ruin more than just a day. That is-spreading rumors. No matter whether the rumor is true, or false. Once your name is included then you won't have any peaceful moments for the whole day. Especially when the rumor was spreaded in unexpected places and bout unexpected things. Sigh.. Never knew this day will come. This stupid thing made me unable to pay attention at the last chap of sejarah. And to add the cherry on top, that chapter is bloody long :( Sigh.. Nothing can be done. Just have to let them say anything they want as they are just like aunties in the market. The more they talk the better they will feel. Parents just had to take this opportunity and add the hot chocolate fudge on top. Sigh..

Life have its ups and downs

*blow away dusts* Haha I'm finally here to revive my now dead blog :P it has been dead since..June? Well at least there's something new to read now :)

While reading sejarah, a sudden flashback came into my head. It came when I was staring at some photo frames and a mermaid that was placed on my table-birthday presents from my primary days. Then I realized that it has been a long time since I mentioned to someome about my primary life. So here's some of the bits and pieces. (I recommend you to stop now if you don't want to face the wall of text below)

Just an average short girl with spectacles and thick hair. In the first few years of my primary life, I joined ballet and have long hair. Therefore, the thick hair wasn't obvious. When I decided to quit ballet, i have to chop them off. Here comes the short girl with specs and thick short hair that resembles a mushroom. Yes, mushroom.

In standard 4 i think, due to a fight which resolves around I-don't-know-wat, friends became enemies. My life then immediately turned 180 degrees. You remember how it is during primary when someone hated another, more people joined the group? Yeap same case here. Not long after that around 85% of the class joined the opposite side for the little carnival.

My spectacle frame had a small design of a squid by the side. This gave them the idea of squid+mushroom=poison kinda thing. So whenever I touched something, they must touch other people to be safe from the 'poison'.

When I meant 180 degrees, I meant literally 180 degrees. From the average 10 year old girl, I became someone who cried almost everyday in school. I locked myself in the bathroom in school to cry. I changed tuition because a certain someone is there. I had the thought to commit suicide and to hurt myself. I searched for reasons to skip school. Even though it's just a simple headache or sore throat. I remember the look in teacher's eyes that said ''you're just making this up right little girl''.

In standard 6, my friend didn't invite me to the birthday party because someone said nobody will go if I went. Luckily even though with all these things happening, I learned to be tough and go through them. There was of course times when the emotions came back. Well, what do you expect from a primary school girl?

I've learn to get to know people from different classes. Before school I'll look for them and have a small chat. At least a second out of class still is precious time. In the end I got 7As for UPSR and primary days was over. Even though in standard 4,5,6 wasn't what a normal school girl should be going through, I went through it and got what I wanted-good results in UPSR.

Now I'm 17, with long straightened (brown =D) hair, contacts and my beloved friends. Just like what I had written as my title, life have its ups and downs. Therefore we should picture those down moments as challenges, hurdles that were placed in front of a bright future. Once you go through them, then you will smile again :)

For those that read the whole post I must say THANK YOU VERY MUCH for your time :) and congratulations. You had succeeded in reading the entire wall of text XD

So here's a short note,
Now you know some of the bad moments in my life. We will have to remember that in everyone there will normally be something. Let it be a healed scar or a wound. And a small gesture that meant absolutely nothing to you, will cut a wound into someone's heart and leave a scar. Forever and always.

I can't handle insults. Full stop.